Solid Ground

It doesn't matter how much time goes by...nothing makes this fair, or helps it make sense, or dulls the pain. I want my baby back! I can't figure out what I have ever done to deserve this. It is a fate that can not be trumped by any card...to outlive your only child, and to have to suffer the pain for the rest of your earthly existence. How can this possibly be God's plan? Please Lord...give me some insight.