This is my second Mother's Day without Brittney. Last year at this time, I was still in a daze over her sudden departure from my life. I also struggled with the feeling that, since she was my only child, I may not even qualify any more as a true mother. I have realized over the course of the last year that the experience of motherhood can never be taken away.
This morning, I woke up to the familiar sound of an incoming text message....followed by another...and another...and another! This pattern went on for a good part of the day. These happy Mother's Day messages came from family, friends, past students and MANY of Brittney's close friends. They were filled with funny memories, assurances that Britt would be hovering over me all day today, and reminders of the wonderful relationship Brittney and I had. I briefly wondered if they had all gotten together and planned this bombardment of well wishes, but then I remembered that they were from a number of unrelated social groups in different locations. Regardless of how it happened, I consider it a Mother's Day miracle. None of those people can truly know how beautifully they have honored the memory of Brittney and helped me once again to feel the specialness of this day.*
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You’ll always and forever be a mother… Hers obviously, but mine too. I hate to be the one to break the news to you, but you’re a grandma too, hope that little piece of info doesn’t look bad on your next dating profile lol. I doubt you’ll ever see this but I’m sorry for everything, I’m sorry for being in Texas with you guys, if that was meant to happen then all I did was take up time you could’ve spent together. I’m sorry for being gone all these years, not living right, I wish I knew your number so I could call. This is a weird way to write you since I know you won’t see it but I love you so much. You’ve made a huge impact on my life, I can never thank you enough for blessing me with your love.
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